Moving Day!

 4/1/21

 The farm has been sold, closing is the end of April, and tomorrow is moving day for me, and 'the girls' : Briana, Jaide, Cleo and Simone`.  I have been packing and figuring out where things fit or will go, what to leave behind, and now?  I don't think I could find a thing in them all! I did label what's inside on some- but there were many packed a year ago ( when I was told the farm was being sold....) and those?  I will look at them as opening Christmas gifts because I'll have no idea...  :)

 And so it goes. A dear friend of mine is moving the mares for me which will save me a LOT of money. And I trust her completely too- which really helps.

The movers will be here tomorrow AM and get started. My sister and hubby are coming up w/ a little trailer they own and we will be putting things in it that I will need where I am staying. Ha- like Clothes!! And shampoo and deodorant!

 For those of you who do not know, this move is a divorce situation. I know the ex-to-be has been trying to be polite and easy going- which I really appreciate, and once the farm is sold, we'll get busy on the divorce to be accomplished.

 Yes- it has been really difficult to handle it all; organizing, planning, finding somewhere for me that accepts good pets, a farm for the mares that doesn't cost an arm and a leg, or one's firstborn. Then to find the money for it all. Luckily I have known that I was done with it all a while ago and saved money for all of this.  So far so good though. After the farm closing is done, I will ponder just what I want to do with the rest of my life. 

There have been many tears and thoughts of how long I want to play 'the game' of being married still. Before I just left , that is. So much in the way of soul searching also- about how very slowly, everything I am was removed and here I am.  A 'nothing' at this point.  I'm a survivor though and will return. Not as full-on, like before because I simply wanted to retire up here and ended up with a nice enough farm that Needed to be used. That never happened, so now?  I AM retiring!  Still the horsewoman I always have been, but just a little more "kicked back". Wanting to enjoy my four girls, and live in peace and quiet is my goal. Go for long walks, visit with some people if I choose.  It will finally be a peaceful calm life.

 Wish me luck on this new chapter of life!  I should change the subtitle to "random meanderings of an Old horsewoman" !!  (:p